and so the tears rolled again..

So every time I ask God to just show me, he shows me what I don't want to see or hear. I found out the job, I really wanted and hyped myself up for, I didn't get it. Why, IDK but I don't want to hear he got a bigger blessing, he working behind the scenes, and all that. I'm totally exhausted in this fight. I thank him for friends like Kim, who truly listens to my heart. I don't know where to go or began again. Not sure if I even want to...I just here and continue to cry and hope at some point my tears will extinguish themselves..