Good Morning...

Good Morning...I am truly blessed...this is not something that came to me but something I keep thanking God for..I guess it keeps me grounded in the mist of the storm...Im so glad I had a talk with my BFF, I have new found respect for and continue to pray for the best...

I have alot to do today, I pray I get it done so I can focus on the things I need to. I am going to do my damnest to get it done... My heart still aches for that special someone but as each day goes on..Im learning about the man for me and I do believe God is preparing me...

Early morning motivation

So I woke up this morning with the plan to get a lot accomplish only to get a phone call from David, the life coach...Anyway, he got me heated on HBCUs & networking... At first I was pissed but as always me to talking to him motivates me to take my game to the next level. Everytime I talk to him, something else pops up in my brain and everytime we talk I have to go back to the drawing board...

Brad sent me a message. And Teddy Bear... God knows Im not attracted to either one so why do I entertain it... Im pushing on without a response...My day is coming, just dont know when...

Reality Check

So I just spent the last few days having a blast...nothing like uncle robert..I thank God everyday for him cause there is no one better:)

I decided to reevaluate my career, life, values, mission...I have to find my purpose cause what I thought I knew, I no longer know. I do believe God has something profound, I just need him to speak a little louder...

I continue to pray for my closest friends. They are the best!!!! Both are battling there own issues but fortunately there is a God heaven that is still in the business of answering prayers. God continue to watch over them and guide them!

As for me, today is a blessing. I get to start all over again... I dont know what thoughts,ideas, or even if any will but Im open to the possibilities...I want it all but only if its his will and his time...See Im learning:)

I had an early morning convo where certain things have stood out! I am on a mission to fulfill ME! I continue to pray and wait on the mate, school, career, in the mean time, fix me GOD!

For some reason I cant get it right..

I know I have been gone for a few days but I have been having the time of my life with my favorite uncle...family seems to always brings out the best in you. However, remember the other day I had made up my mind to move past Marcus and give James a try..well I was a little too late...James has a girl now... I might would be ok with that but you wasnt even man enough to tell me you just got lost.... I cared for and was ready to devote time and energy but you led me on or maybe I led myself into thinking him and I had a chance... I told God I'm tired..I feel like I'm still being punished for the Marcus relationship so I have decided to concentrate solely on me! I faked and told his azz I understand, enjoy, take care... I really wanted to say, kiss my azz, you just like the rest of them Negroes... I thought you were so different, I hyped you up & everybody truly believed in him when I didn't but its the way he did... I cant get it right maybe I'm going to grow old alone.... Who knows but I need God to fix me cause seems like everybody else has it together and I dont even know where she came from I guess ATL or New York for new years... I wish them luck...