My soul is burning for the IT & HIM.....

I say this cause I am so ready to experience it! I am so ready for the IT- a job! I have not been unemployed since I left college. I know some people who are like I hate it so be happy but thats just not me. I love to stay busy it keeps me out of stuff, from the devil on my back, and it gives me a paycheck. I pray every night that God opens that door, when?IDK. Hopefully soon, I keep asking him to reveal my passion if its not what I think it is...Still I get no answers..Everyday that I get no hope, the more my soul burns. Yes, its a recession and a new group of kids from college will be entering the full time work force soon, what is a girl to do? I just keep searching for answers....

The Him... Wow,I pray for him more than I pray for myself...Its true- I love this man...Nobody understands it( yeah Kim you get it) But see he brings me joy. You see even as I type this I'm smiling thinking of him.He is the type of brotha that makes most sista jealous cause see he is hard to find and a keeper. Yeah wish I had know him 2 years ago might be better off...I wake up with him and go to sleep with him. I see him in my tunnel vision and deep escapades. I see him with no one else is around.Yeah I know God you my #1 and no he is not you but he is of your image. You know the rest....

It sticks to my gut....

So my BFF and I have been trying to get her finances in order all day and it brought up the topic of "equally yoked" . I said you must be marry somebody that financially you have the same thoughts and interests. I said you and your husband are both the same- financially undisciplined! Yes, I said it but it bothers me on how much time she spends on a budget only to go against it.Yes,I know its her life and I thank God everyday for Phillip. Yes, he gave me discipline at a time when I had none financially. So it brought me to the following article and the part that sticks at my gut. Dating Trait #5- Wow, he enriches your life! This means the most to me out of all 5 traits. cause I believe on some level every man gives you 1-4, either in the beginning and it stops, or he learns, or its just a given. But #5 is something most girls,gals,women, and ladies don't look for. Most women don't ever get this in a lifetime and I had that. Someone who gave me that and then some. Who was suppose to help me conquer the world together. So when I read the part in turquoise my gut immediately cringed. Why? Cause once you experience you NEVER ever want to go back to someone who doesn't. He encouraged on all 3 levels- personally(the move- I told you he had me in tears); Professionally(He was saving the world with his Wonder Woman); and Spiritually(Oct 13th- I fell in love- he says remember we make plans, and God makes plans)...


Dating Trait #1: He listens to you

The best way to know if Mr. Next is interested in (and worthy of) being a candidate for Mr. Right? He listens to you. You'll know he's listening when he shows genuine concern, consistently remembers things you've told him (your birthday, favorite food, best friend's name, etc.), and offers emotional support in honest and thoughtful ways.

Dating Trait #2: He connects with you easily

We've all been in those relationships that take W-O-R-K (and suck the life force out of us in the process). When a relationship works on its own, it feels effortless, easy, and fluid. You don't have to force anything, forgive anyone, or turn a blind eye to red flags or gut-twisters. Instead, you communicate and collaborate with comfort, compatibility, and undeniable chemistry. If and when you experience this kind of interaction, you are on to something really special.

Dating Trait #3: He wants the real you

So often, women feel the need to sacrifice some part of themselves to make a relationship work. In the right relationship, there's no need. You don't have to hide, tone down, or apologize for any aspect of you or your fabulous life. With the right partner, you're not only able to be yourself, but you're better able to be the best version of your most authentic self -- no compromises needed.

Dating Trait #4: He's trustworthy

A relationship without trust is doomed from the start. But a relationship with abundant trust? A fabulous foundation for real and lasting love! Built over time, trust is based on the simple belief system that your partner has your best interests at heart and will never intentionally hurt you (and vice versa). If and when you discover that Mr. Next is 100 percent trustworthy, you'll have no trouble giving your heart to him. In return, he'll most likely give you his heart and pave the way for a lasting, loving relationship to unfold.

Dating Trait #5: He enriches your life

In the wrong relationship, your partner tears you to emotional shreds, brings you down, and in general drains your energy. In the right relationship, he enriches your life, inspires you to be your best self, and brings a sense of peace and possibility to you. You'll know Mr. Next is enriching your life if and when he encourages and supports you professionally, personally, and spiritually. And when he does, he may just be Mr. Right!

Dear God, please and I say please if its within your will please give me another chance to experience JJB again. If not him, please send someone that possess the characteristics he had and then some! Amen!