Something so amazing

So, I kept telling myself last week that March was going to be a good month. Why and how did I know- my gut told me this. I felt is all the way in my bones. God knows I think too much and think too hard:) so when I tell you that I have been wrestling with this job situation, the move to DC, educational goals, career dreams, friends the ones to keep and let go, wanting to find that special someone, pissed that I had it and let it go, fear that I wont find him again, fear that if I pursue my educational dreams can I have the kids, husband. My kids are going to be stair-step kids, etc. However, I realized that my faith is strong and Im so grateful God took me thru my situation. Its been a year and a half since I had a job but Im ok. It brought me closer to Jesus, gave me spiritual growth, and let me reflect on me. I love Marcus and always will but long term I doubt we would have made it to the alter! Thank you God for closing that door, that I was trying to tear the hinges off of:) Thank you for taking me thru my situation because I now know who and what friendship is all about. I also meet some great people in the mist and realized you have a purpose for EVERYTHING! I realized if I prayer, you listen.I realized if I fight my battle on my knees, you answer. DC must be where I belong- I get it and everybody is waiting on me to get there. My uncle, moms cousin, and my BFF! Patrick started my Sunday, God you always know how to get my attention. Then the stellar awards was awesome- I cant quit- sitting on top of the world:). My girl Davola got a new job and excited, my sister got a job offer and finally figured out the Praxis..YES!!!! My brother Eric got a phone interview today for a job in VA! God is finally working in and around me. Im getting focused!
Ive had a great day! I laughed at Kim( she says Im always on the line with Jesus she cant get on), babied Phillip( him been sick for 2 days), and thinking that Darren Sharper and James has conspired to get me to talk to him again( Darren might be going to Chicago) What?? Saints need him! Is this the dream about the Saints and Bears babies! LOL.. I bit the bullet and sent James an email cause it was killing me not to talk smack to him. I miss our convo, texts, and emails..O well moving on.....